GOD’s Love
has to be returned, we love because GOD first Loved us. We cannot receive GOD’s
Love unless we return it to Him by giving it away, and we cannot give it away
unless we truly receive it.
Growing up I
knew my parents loved me, I just knew it because I understood it by the fact of
their provision and boundaries for me and my siblings. But they did not
demonstrate it by their words and affection. So I knew they loved me but I did
not receive it in a way that made me better or more obedient to their desires.
To me GOD’s Love
has been the same, I know GOD Loves me, I understand the measure of His Love by
His Word. I believe it and declare it, I hope in it, but that has not made me
better or more obedient to His Will for me.
So I
struggle in my walk of faith and obedience, I want to please GOD and do His
Will, to hear His voice and understand His purpose in the process. I KNOW THAT
GOD LOVES ME, THAT HE MADE ME HIS SON, THAT HE GAVE ME CHRIST’S VICTORIES, THAT
HIS WILL FOR ME IS BEYOND WHAT I CAN IMAGINE; but, I struggle. GOD’s Love is
received not earned, but I struggle.
I have not
believed in the prosperity doctrine from the beginning of my salvation, yet I
want GOD to prosper me in all that I do. I have believed in the healing
doctrine from the beginning of my salvation, yet I struggle in receiving and ministering
healing to others. I know that GOD has given me Christ’s victory and made me a
new man, but I struggle with those nagging sins that so easily beset me.
It is GOD’s
Love that sets me free from all that is of the flesh and of the world so that I
can live in all that is of His Kingdom in the earth as it is in Heaven. So how
do I do that, how do I live in GOD’s Love? Not by my deeds which can become
religious, not by my obedience that can be come ritual. How do I do the Works
of the Father (His Will), how do I learn and memorize His Word (The Bible)
without these things becoming religious and ritual?
By trust! In
most places where faith is used in the Bible trust is another meaning for the
root word. Faith has taken on almost mystical properties because of bad
teachings based on Hebrews 11:1, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped
for; the evidence of things not seen.” NKJV; where we try to conjure up faith (which
is a gift from GOD, Ephesians 2:8). In the Complete Jewish Bible (CJB) it says,
“Trusting is being confident of what we hope for, convinced about things we do
not see.” This makes more sense, if I know GOD through experience and His Word
then I can trust Him to do as He says He does and will.
As children
we trusted (believed – had faith in) what our parents told us and as we went
through life we learned whether they could be depended on (trusted) or not.
That is not some mystical thing it is the experience of life. In GOD’s Kingdom
on the earth, it is the same thing, when we are first saved we believe GOD
because He saved us, as we go (grow) through our Christian life we learn if we
can trust GOD or not. The sad thing is that if we learn that we cannot trust
GOD it is because we have not experienced GOD; we have experienced what others
have taught us that GOD is.
One of the
big problems with the Church today is that most Christians do not know the
Bible (The Word of GOD) well enough to know when they are being taught error.
When we are young Christians we believe what other Christians tell us because
we do not know; but GOD expects us to learn of who He is. How do we learn of
who GOD is? By His Spirit (Holy Spirit) and His Word (The Bible), these two
things GOD has given humanity so that we can know Him and experience Him as He
wants us to.
That is the
importance of family, first we start as children and we learn to trust or not
trust based on our family and friends. Then as adults we marry and relearn the
give and take of love and trust. Our relationship with GOD is the same, first
we are His children and we learn to trust Him by our experience, He even refers
to the Church as the Bride of Christ, so in our preparation for the Marriage
Supper we learn the give and take of Love and Trust.
All this is
to say that I am learning to stop trying to prove my love for GOD by my obedience
and deeds based on what I think GOD expects and to just trust GOD that His Word
is True and I can depend on Him to do what He says. This is not an overnight transition
but as I care less about me and doing and more about Him and being I know my trust
in Him will be fulfilled!
IT IS NOT
ABOUT ME – IT IS ABOUT GOD (FATHER, SON AND SPIRIT)!