LOVER OR PROSTITUTE? The Question that Changed My Life
-by David Ryser.
A number of years ago, I had the privilege of teaching at
a school of ministry. My students were hungry for God, and I was constantly
searching for ways to challenge them to fall more in love with Jesus and to
become voices for revival in the Church. I came across a quote attributed most
often to Rev. Sam Pascoe. It is a short version of the history of Christianity,
and it goes like this:
Christianity started in Palestine as a
fellowship; it moved to Greece and became a philosophy; it moved
to Italy and became an institution; it moved to Europe and became a
culture; it came to America and became an enterprise.
Some of the students were only 18 or 19 years old and I
wanted them to understand and appreciate the import of the last line, so I
clarified it by adding, "An enterprise. That's a business."
After a few moments Martha, the youngest student in the
class, raised her hand. I could not imagine what her question might be. I
thought the little vignette was self-explanatory, and that I had performed it
brilliantly. Nevertheless, I acknowledged Martha's raised hand, "Yes,
Martha."
She asked such a simple question, "A business? But
isn't it supposed to be a body?"
I could not envision where this line of questioning was
going, and the only response I could think of was, "Yes."
She continued, "But when a body becomes a business,
isn't that a prostitute?"
The room went dead silent. For several seconds no one
moved or spoke. We were stunned, afraid to make a sound because the presence of
God had flooded into the room, and we knew we were on holy ground. God had
taken over the class.
Martha's question changed my life. For six months, I
thought about her question at least once every day. "When a body becomes a
business, isn't that a prostitute?"
There is only one answer to her question. The answer is
"Yes." The American Church, tragically, is heavily
populated by people who do not love God. How can we love Him? We don't even
know Him; and I mean really know Him....
I stand by my statement that most American Christians do
not know God--much less love Him. The root of this condition originates in how
we came to God. Most of us came to Him because of what we were told He would do
for us. We were promised that He would bless us in life and take us to heaven
after death. We married Him for His money, and we don't care if He lives or
dies as long as we can get His stuff. We have made
the Kingdom of God into a business, merchandising His
anointing.
This should not be. We are commanded to love God, and are
called to be the Bride of Christ--that's pretty intimate stuff. We are supposed
to be His lovers. How can we love someone we don't even know? And even if we do
know someone, is that a guarantee that we truly love them? Are we lovers or
prostitutes?
I was pondering Martha's question again one day, and
considered the question, "What's the difference between a lover and a
prostitute?" I realized that both do many of the same things, but a lover
does what she does because she loves. A prostitute pretends to love, but only as
long as you pay. Then I asked the question, "What would happen if God
stopped paying me?"
For the next several months, I allowed God to search me
to uncover my motives for loving and serving Him. Was I really a true lover of
God? What would happen if He stopped blessing me? What if He never did another
thing for me? Would I still love Him?
Please understand, I believe in the promises and
blessings of God. The issue here is not whether God blesses His children; the
issue is the condition of my heart. Why do I serve Him? Are His blessings in my
life the gifts of a loving Father, or are they a wage that I have earned or a
bribe/payment to love Him? Do I love God without any conditions?
It took several months to work through these questions.
Even now I wonder if my desire to love God is always matched by my attitude and
behavior. I still catch myself being disappointed with God and angry that He
has not met some perceived need in my life. I suspect this is something which
is never fully resolved, but I want more than anything else to be a true lover
of God.
So what is it going to be? Which are we, lover or
prostitute?
Posted 18th September
2013 by Anonymous
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